Post op

Just wanted to give an update on my post ob. The only thing he found was very very mild endo. He said it wasnt even stage one. He said with cleaning it out that it upped our chance of conceiving by 5-10%. With our male factor he said we should do a medicated IUI cycle. We are going to do half clomid half gonal F. He also said that he thinks I do need the PIO which makes me really happy. I really believe thats what we need to have this work. I don't wanna do it but I do.

No word on foster care, still waiting on State to sign our paper so we have day care. So much for 2-3 days, it's been 2 weeks.

If you want more of an update see my youtube channel.

Long overdue update.

I'm so sorry i fell off the blogging wagon. I don't know if I was depressed or just annoyed or what. This has just been super over whelming and frustrating. Theres an update for you all. If this video doesn't work you can also view it here.

CD 7-3dpiui

Sorry I've been so bad at updating, I've been so sick.

I ending up stimming for 9 days. 150IU of gonal F the first 7 and 75 the last two days. I was sick the whole time.

I did IUI on Friday. We had 12.6 million sperm. I had three mature follicles and possibly two more that might have caught up. They had a really hard time getting in my cervix but finally did with a lot of cramping. I'm on crinone this time and I like it much better. I hope it helps!

Yesterday 2dpiui I started having really bad pain in my ovaries and back. Couldn't even sit up this morning at 3dpiui. I finally talked to the doctor and he said based on my E2 level day of trigger he doesn't think it's ohss. He thinks my ovaries are just inlarged and swollen. He told me to keep drinking gatorade and track of my weight and if I gain more then 5lbs call him. I hope thats all it is but I'd really like to not be in pain. I pretty much slept all day today and I have tomorrow off already since my brother is in town. Hopefully I can at least make it to lunch even if I cant go to the lake.

2-6cd

Tuesday they started me on 150IU Gonal F, first 3 days went well. Day 4 of meds, yesterday cd5 I got really sick to my stomach. I can't keep any food in me at all. TMI warning*****************





About 2 or 3 hours after I eat, and it doesn't matter what I eat I'm either throwing up (thats only happened once) but most is horrible diarrhea. I can only assume it's from the gonal F. Its really not fun. I have spent way to much time in the mall and walmart bathrooms over the past two days. Who lives like this?!

Anyways I had my cd5 US and it showed 5 or 6 lead follices. I got back Monday for another US. I really hope this is out answer.

CD2 Appointment

I met with the PA today and she said she is still really positive about my case. I start gonal F tonight. 150IU for the next three and then US Friday. They don't know why I started bleeding but they are going to change me to crinone first before switching to PIO.

I'm scared but I'm so ready to do this. I've decided I'm going to focus on me this cycle and stop worrying about everybody else. I just can't give give give all the time.

10-12dpiui

10dpiui- spotted twice so I was hopping it was implantation bleeding

11dpiui - spotting got much much worse so I figured I was out but still hoping it was implantation cause I'm on progesterone.

12dpiui - I've been bleeding to the point I need a tampon, not as heavy as normal but much more then spotting. Tested before all this this morning and it was neg so.

How do you start your period on progesterone? I've never had a cycle this should. I'm so annoyed. I have an apt tomorrow to go over my injectibles and I'm going to talk to her about why my cycle is so short. UGH anything else I should ask?

10dpiui

Test was neg this am so it must have been trigger. I've never tested positive before 12 so it would have been crazy. Ugh a few more days!

9dpiui

I tested this morning. Both my two previous cycles trigger was gone at 9dpiui. The first cycle i tested every two days from day 2. 2nd cycle I only tested at day 5 and 9. This time since I was outta town I decided just to test day 9. UGH it was positive, very positive. Ok not very but it looked like the one I took at day five the first cycle. Yes I have them taped to a piece of paper still.

I really believe I'm pregnant but I don't wanna get my hopes up. I went and got frer and I'll take one tomorrow and Sunday. I kinda hope the cheap one is darker tomorrow and then I'll know but if nothing else i hope I have a better idea by Sunday.

5-8dpiui

I have been meaning to post everyday but I've been so tired.

5dpiui - light cramping but it was pretty good day. We drove 8 hours home and I spelt at least 3 hours in the car so I didn't notice to much.

6dpiui- more cramping, pain/pressure down below. Very tired, don't know if thats the three day weekend or pregnancy? Huge painful boobs.

7dpiui- pinching on my sides. Still cramping and tired. Huge boobs, painful boobs.

8dpiui (today) - Pretty intense cramping. My bbs hurt so badly. After my nap I had to put a bra on they hurt so bad. I finally got to take a nap after work. I slept for 2 1/2 hours and it's not even 10pm and I'm ready to crash. My boobs are getting out of control HUGE!

I hope so so so much this is it. If it's not this is some cruel sick joke. In my gut I really think I'm pregnant but I'm so scared it's in my head and we'll have to move on to injectibles.

Planning on testing tomorrow to make sure trigger is gone and then I'm gonna try to hold out till Tuesday.

Cd13 - 4pdiuu

Sorry I haven't been around this week. I worked extra everyday so I could leave early to go out of town. This was on top of class and IUI.

Tuesday - just worked and had acupuncture. My ovaries killed most of the day. 

Wen - IUI went great!! 13 million. They decided since I have an apt June 4th for injectibles that they'll do a beta since that's 13dpo. They really this is our cycle and won't need it but I have the apt either way. I started a 6 week class on Mon and Wen nights. I loved it.

Thur 1dpiui - cramping and sore. I alway wake up feeling so much better day after IUI. Sore bbs had started.

Friday 2dpiui - I just had a headache. I was also really really bloated. As soon as we got on the rd Chris had me take meds and I slept the first six hrs and woke up feeling much better.

Saturday 3dpiui - started progesterone. I had some cramping and really bloated. My bbs have blown up!

Sunday 4dpiui - light cramping, sick after I ate (progesterone). 

That's all I got for now. Enjoying Albuquerque! It's so pretty here! Headed home tomorrow and back to the grind Tuesday. Very thankful for a short week.

The nerve of some people.

I am truly blown away by some people. I was raised to work hard, be kind, pray for others and help them in any way I can. I have worked my butt off since I was 15 years old, really younger baby sitting and mowing lawns. I donate to the food bank and animal shelter monthly. I have been blessed with an ok job as well as my husband. I do have student loans and medical bills but no real debit. The fact that I don't making $100,000 to pay for IVF doesn't mean I don't deserve to be a mother. I picked a loving, amazing, God fearing man to marry and we are infertile. God has blessed me with amazing friends that have donated money but yes I have sold many many things to add to our fund. We don't buy things we can't afford. I would give anyone the shirt off my back and anyone who knows the real me knows this. If I could work three jobs I would but going to school, working, and attending church (I start teaching in Sep) I am left with very little time. Not to add I can't be on my feet to much since I was hurt while in the Army serving our country. I never pull that card but I am the one that raised my hand and vowed to fight for you to the right to say the hateful things you believe.

At first I thought you were just ignorant and I was willing to let your comments go, or even try and educate but now I know you are just hateful.

Why can one donate personally to a friend after they've lost their house in a tornado but you can't donate money to a friend to have a baby. Should my friends that lost their house suck up their bad luck and be told to get another job and deal with insurance and rebuilding yourself? No we should give what we can and help. If my friends and family are blessed and want to help us build our dream of a family then they are amazing people. I have no forced anyone to help me nor do I expect it. My dream is a family and someone elses might be to open a hotel or whatever and you would expect your friends and family to support that. Is it not right for those lucky people who have IVF coverage thru their insurance to use it? They didn't work three jobs for it, they just got lucky.

I know this post will not chance the mind of those that aren't willing to open their minds and not judge others. I live my life the best I can trying to serve God. He and only he has blessed me with good friends and family who support me. That support may be money, a pray, a hug, a dose of HCG, whatever, I am truly blessed! I wish that you knew what feeling blessed was like. I feel sorry for you.

To those that stepped up and had my back and love me thank you. Ya'll are amazing and I love you!!

Just a side note I have donated to those harmed by the tornado. Many are close personal friends. I also opened my home to them. It could have been me and then what? Then you would donate?

CD 12 US

Left
19 and an 11
Right
25, 21, 19, 11

They thought that based on the US that I might have already started to ovulate but I had not. I trigger here every soon which is awesome because my ovaries are killing and then IUI wen!!

Ready to do this!!! My ankle is killing but i'm not complaining because with this horrible tornado many good friends lost everything. Rough day!

What a week

I have had the worst week.

Last wen I started allergy shots. Also came down with a horrible headache, figured it was the progesterone crash as I'd stopped that Monday. I alway get a headache/migraine before AF. AF started Thursday. By Saturday it hadn't gone away but I figured since my progesterone was finally at a normal level that it was just a harder crash and hoped it would be gone by morning. started my clomid that night as well. Sunday came and still a migraine, now it was getting worse. I called and talked to the on call RE to see what she thought and she said it shouldn't be the progesterone crash at this point and that I could take NSAID's until cd12. I thought oh thank goodness ecedrine will knock this out. WRONG! Monday came and I just couldn't deal, I called the allergy doctor to see if it could have been a reaction to the allergy shots i had started (thats what I think it was) they said no so I made an apt with the reg doctor. He gave me some migraine med and ordered a CT of my head. The meds gave me some relief but the longer i took them the less they helped. Oh I forgot Sunday night I ran in the store to get my newspapers (had to have my coupons) and rolled my ankle. I knew it was sore Monday but with such a bad migraine I didn't worry to much about the soreness. By Tuesday I knew something was really wrong with my foot. It was pretty purple. I called and made an apt with my foot doctor. Couldn't see me till Thursday. I saw the chiro Tuesday and hopped acupuncture would help me migraine. It did at the moment and he looked at my foot and said he didn't think it was broken but thought I might have torn something. GREAT! By Wen my migraine was so bad I couldn't work, I had sun glass on at my desk and finally wrapped an icepack to my head. My boss finally told me he understood I wanted to work but I looked like crap and needed to go home or maybe the ER. Since I could barely walk and couldn't see straight I went to the ER. 

They did X-rays and my foot was broken, the did a CT and it was clear. The ER doctor thought it was the allergy shot so that made me feel better. After several tries they got an IV and gave me fluids just in case I was dehydrated. They gave me some really good drugs. I was GONE! I remember saying I'm soooo high over and over, I remember my dad picking me up and taking me to eat but I don't remember talking to anyone, texting, nothing. It was pretty funny reading those texts later. The next morning I had slept thru my alarm and called in. I don't remember calling in but my phone and boss said I did. I was out for a whole day pretty much. The ER also put me on crutches and left it up to the foot doctor I was seeing the next day if I needed an MRI. 

Went to the foot doctor Thursday and he said I tore two ligaments in my ankle and so I'm in a boot for 2-3 weeks. It really hurts. I also forgot how much crutches suck, the boots no fun either.

I still have a headache but it's not anywhere as bad. I'm taking the migraine med still and 800mg ibuprofen. I can't take the good stuff durin the day cause he pretty much knocks me out or makes me straight loopy. 

I went to work today and I felt so foggy all day but somehow I worked my 8. I'm down to one sick day the rest of the year. UGH!

With all this crap going on is it safe to do IUI next week? Did I fry my follicles with all these drugs?

Man I need to sleep....some more. 

13dpiui

Neg test this morning so I'm out. Hubby and I talked it over and have decided well do another 2 cycle just like we decided in the beginning. One more clomid and an injectable. If the doctor is ok with all this. I'm pretty sad and have cried but I'm trying to move on. It's going to take a couple days to regroup but I'm sure it'll take a couple days for my period to start after stopping progesterone.

9dpiui

Trigger is gone. Can't wait till Monday.

I stayed home from work today because i felt so sick. My throat is on fire today. I feel better after this evenings batch of meds so I hope they will kick this things. I have to go to work tomorrow so I hope I can sleep tonight.

I can't tell is anything I'm feeling is the meds or pregnancy. I feel just like I did at 9dpiui last time. That makes me feel kinda good because it did work last time but it's still frustrating since I am on so many meds.

Please let this work! Please let this work!!!

8dpiui

I went to the doctor and I do in fact have bronchitis again. UGH. They gave me a steriod shot to jump start everything and then I start pills tomorrow. He said my breathing was pretty bad which is scary since I only started coughing yesterday. OK is for sure not my friend! Makes me wanna move away, I've never been this sick month after month.

My bbs blew up today. HUGE!!! Oh and at the doctor I've gained 15 lbs since starting treatment. 5 of which is new and the heaviest I've ever been. UGH Can you not gain weight when your pregnant? I'm only 1/2 kidding.

I'm also really really hot. Not all the time but most of the day.

I tested this morning even thought I said I'd wait till tomorrow it was still positive. Come on trigger get out.

I've been nauseous for days so if it's the trigger I'd like a couple days of peace before 9 weeks of this. Yes I am remaining positive. Only a few more days now.

7dpiui

I think I'm getting bronchitis again. UGH I see the doctor tomorrow. I talked to the RE nurse and she said I can take my inhaler but like many things they don't know the full side effects on the baby so I'm trying to take it easy so I don't need it.

I feel pretty crappy. On top of which hubbys flight was so delayed last night that I only got about four of sleep.  Accupunture did help thought. I think here in a bit I'm going to go to bed.

Things are starting to smell funky and diet dr pepper isn't tasting so great either.

I love my RE nurse, when I talked to her today she said she would be looking forward to my good new come Monday. She is 1000% sure I'm pregnant and it makes me feel better! She has her transfer tomorrow and I pray so much that shes pregnant too. She's truly amazing.

5dpiui

Yesterday I got my hair down. The color turned out really red and not brown. Guess any tiny hint of warmth pulls red, they are going to redo it since I got it done at a school. I love love love the cut thought.

I keep trying to add a pic but it's not working GRR.

5dpiui I am sooooo thirsty! Is that normal with progesterone? I don't remember this last time.

3dpiui

I wasn't going to keep track of my symptoms this cycle but after things start I have found myself looking back at my blog from IUI#1 and being so glad I blogged and know whats normal. I've kinda changed my mind clearly.

1dpiui

Oh my word the dog started barking and this horrible sound and I realized oh my word hail on my nice car so I shut the computer and ran outside to move my car under a tree, the hail hurt but I got it under a tree and blocked by a building on the side the hail was coming from. The water was already flooding the parking lot as I ran back so my feet are wet and cold but maybe I saved my newish car from being ruined. UGH

Ok back to my post

1dpiui - slight headache
2dpiui - cramping in the morning but went away with water intake
3dpiui slight cramping like on the sides/back pain. Dinner tasted gross and everybody agreed the crackers used to make the chicken fried steak were old. I however was the only one to throw up. Once before I left my parents and one on the ride home. Is throwing up normal 5 days after 10000U trigger?? (no one else got sick just fyi)

Yesterday I woke up at 4am to take hubby to the airport to see him mom. Well I look at my phone and there is a text from my sister in law from the night before and I open it and it says we have big news to share with a positive pregnancy test. She's 18, still living with her parents during the week and she's still in high school. Yes they got married while she was in high school as they had to be married at least a year before my brother got out of the army to get the extra money. UGH

Well thats all I got. Hope you all are well.

Emotional

Today I was quite emotional. I feel like I somehow have become the black sheep in my family or I'm always going to be 2nd best. It's really annoying in general but even more so when its about babies. There are no grandkids in the family as of yet so when I'm the one trying to get pregnant it's frustrating my mom cares about my siblings future kids and not mine. It's like saying she's givin up on me either having any at all or being the first one to them. (remember my brother got married in May and my sister is getting married in Nov) Anyways I'm trying not to let family get to me but I can't help it when it hurts. I just feel like me or my life/family (chris and I) are not important and thats hurtful.

I had a really bad breakout of hives today at work. That was fun, all over my face and neck to start and it spread all the way down my stomach, legs before I was able to get away and go get something. As soon as I took the meds they were gone in 15 min and itching within 30. That of course made me soooo sleepy so work sucked. I think sleepy was better then itchy, plus I lived and made it home. lol

Hubby is doing ok, thanks for all your comments. His stomach is still bothering him but he's getting a bunch of free samples of the meds the hospital proscribed tomorrow so I'm sure he'll start feeling better then. He's flying out at 6am to see his mom in FL for the weekend. She works for a doctor and thats whos giving him the samples. I wish I was going, it's so cold here (OK) and he'll be in the beach. LUCKY!! Hope I can stay busy and not kill (I mean explode my feelings) all over my family while he's gone.

Getting my hair cut and colored tomorrow. I'm so excited! I'll try and post pic tomorrow night. Plus I gotta pick up my progesterone to start that Friday morning! Were doing this!!! Now to stay busy until Tuesday and to get some sleep tonight before my alarm goes off at 4am. Thats gonna be rough!!