Try to be calm and cool

We decided not to tell anyone about doing IUI. Mostly because we don't want to deal with any of the neg comments about jobs, money, school. I know that everybody would be happy with a baby just not thrilled about paying money to get one. This makes me sad. Because I come from infertility so that's hard. I just wanna pick up the phone and have somebody tell me Itll work out don't worry I know it's stressful and hard but I don't. Dh gets it to a point but at the same time he's a man. He doesn't want to know or hear that I think about this every minute of the day. I feel like this is so unhealthy! Lol I really need a job or something to keep my mind busy. I know I'm still limited with my injury on what I can and can't do but I've got to find something.

I just hate feeling alone.

To sock it or not?

I've seen some really fun socks on some of your blogs on the day of transfer or IUI and I've been debating if I should get some fun, good luck socks. I normally wear flip flops but changing it up and taking pictures might be fun and it'll be something to do that might help the stress.

Thoughts?

Welcome and my crazy random thoughts!

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Here goes my randomness.

1. I've been having really bad headaches and its starting to worry me. I had a horrible horrible last week Sun-Wen morning and I was going to go to the doctor when it went away. I was hoping it was just a AF headache but not it's back. I don't know what it is. I'm getting my thyroid checked this week so I hope its not that. I think I might need an eye exam. Could it be this bad from my eyes? I don't have any other reason to think I need glasses other than this and my eye do hurt sometimes. About three years ago they told me I needed the lightest prescription but I never got it and now its three years later.

2. I have got to stop googling things. I have googled everything there is to google about IUI. I really need to stop, I'm making myself crazy!!! We haven't gotten to our first visit to find out what this new doctor will and won't do. (oral meds vs injectables) Time frame, anything. 19 days!!

3. What are ya'lls thoughts on letrozel vs injectables?

4. Is it crazy to really believe and trust this is going to work first shot? After 4 years of IF to believe it's going to work. I also have a really strong feeling we'll have multiples, am I crazy. I don't know why I feel so strongly but I just have a feeling. Maybe because they doctor gave us really good odds for it working (the old doctor well see what the new doctor says) and because my risk of multiples is a bit higher.

I think thats all I have for now, my brain is just all over the place. If I'm this crazy and we haven't even gotten to the IUI month how am I going to be during that? I'm gonna need to take a vacation of something during the tww or something.

None to Pleased

I took fertilaid this month before we decided to go ahead with IUI. Now I'm on CD27 since its after midnight and I've been spotting for two days which means AF is due any minute. If and when it shows today that'll mean a 26 day cycle. I'm not happy about this because if I have another short cycle like this again I'll be on cd2 or 3 when my IUI apt finally gets here. I'm worried they won't do the IUI if thats the case, mostly because they have to send our protocol over to winfertility for approval before we can start. I don't want to wait a whole other month to start IUI.

I'm not happy. I'm thinking I won't take fertilaid again this month as I was planning in hopes my cycle will go back to 30-32 days.

As unhappy as I am at the moment I'm trying to be positive and know everything will work out for the best and God has a plan.

Money Matters

Anybody else sit and wonder can I afford IUI, IVF? Do we have the money to have a baby (i.e. get pregnant) let alone raise one?

I'm the worrier in our household and I'm stressing. Our lease is up in April and we'd like to move out of state because DH finally finished his BA and doesn't have a great job now but with no calls back on any jobs and not sure which school would be best for a masters. (He's doing a lot of research) I know we can stay here if need be but neither of us want to but it's stressful thinking about moving and not knowing where and at this point no ones called so they do then who knows where well live and if they don't call do we stay here with not a great job or more for school and then neither of us have a job and I'll possibly be pregnant since IUI is end of Feb. Is this the right time? I mean the reason were doing now before we move is because we got such a great deal on that its hard not to give it at least one shot because we move since this program isn't offered all over the county. AHHHHHH

What is wrong with me?! Anybody else stressed about money while TTC? I feel like I'm always asking this money question because we never have as much as we'd like. LOL

Waiting

Called the new doctor and can't get in until Feb 10th. So far away! Means no IUI this cycle. I'm trying to be ok with it and just continue with the fertilitaid and go with it.

Here we go

I'm calling the new doctor tomorrow to set up our IUI planning apt! I tried to call today but they were closed due to the 1st. I really hope everything goes as planned and we can get in before our next cycle and that I like the new doctor! I'm really excited and I have huge hopes that this will work for us!