A little inspiration...

I know we've all heard those crazy stores about people trying for years and finally getting pregnant but I think this one takes the cake.

I think I mentioned that I've started babysitting a lot more since I lost my job and I started for a new family today. During the interview she didn't say anything about a dad or ex or anything so when we were alone today I ask if there was a dad in the picture or anything and she said well I never found the right guy and I really wanted kids so I decided to do it on my own. I was like thats cool I can understand that. She went on to say she used donor sperm but she couldn't get pregnant and so she did all the different things, clomid, IUI, IVF. She said it took 7 years to finally get pregnant and I had waited till I was 35 to start trying, I wanted to finish medical school and everything. I knew she was an older mom cause well you can tell.

I guess my reference must have told her I was in the same boat, which is totally fine and she busts out with "I did a lot of clinical trails and I did 17 (you read right 17) rounds of IVF, many canceled due to poor egg quality. They kept telling her to give up and adopt, there was even a vibe she said that they didn't want to treat her anymore because she'd had so many failed cycles and wouldn't give up that she was killing there stats for IVF. Then I heard about getting donor eggs which wasn't a big thing 13-16 years ago. I demanded they try that and first round with donor eggs I got pregnant. All three of my children were first try donor eggs IVF (does that make sense)"

I was blown away when she said 17. She said "I wanted a baby and I was going to do everything in my power to get a baby and carry it myself." She said "I called and emailed and looked on the internet everyday or clinical trails, ways to help to make it stick, called the insurance company to get help paying for things, anything and everything I could do to get my baby." She said "Many people don't understand how it feels to want a child so badly, it takes over every thought in your mind and your life but then you finally get your take home baby and everything chances"

Part of me wants to cry and thinks man I really don't know if I could make it thru that many rounds of treatment or try for 7 years with nothing. Then I think well I've already made it thru more than 3 years and I'm still pushing on and if it means holding a baby in my arms one day then it's all worth it right??

Quick update on me since I'm writing.
Yesterday I was sure I was PMSing and af was on the way.
Today I feel really bloated, my bbs went from hardly hurting yesterday to killin today, really gassy. Ahh now I'm like many theres hope!

Why do I/we do this to ourselves?!