So busy!

Welcome everybody and thanks for stopping by. The short and sweet is we suffered unexplained infertility for 4 1/2 years before we found out we have very bad male factor. We were only give IVF or adoption, therefore we are in the middle of getting cert to adopt. Now that your all caught up the cert is going but it's so hard. We are almost done with classes but we still have been approved. They did our homestudy and send it to us, it read well I think but they said between that and our background coming back (hubby had a DUI in 2005) they need all this extra stuff they didn't tell us we needed in the beginning, even thought this was on our application. I should have known they ask for proof of DUI class completion but at the same time, if he has his license why do they need all this. Plus they want a note from the doctor that he's stable on his meds for his seizures. It was going so smooth that I guess I was just hoping it would all keep going that way and we'd be approved soon. I know this isn't easy and I knew it wouldn't be smooth but man this weekend has been hard. I just hope we can get all this extra paperwork for them and get approved, I'm just scared! I just want a baby so badly! In other news, root canal got finished a couple weeks ago and it was AWESOME! I feel so much better. I got my walking boot off as well. I've been in tennis shoes for a few weeks and I feel better but still having some pain. I don't see ditching them anytime soon. Doesn't look great in dress clothes but I'll live. I got a new job! Same pay, WAY better benefits. Paid holiday, sick, vacation, 401K, awesome insurance, and PAID maternity leave after I work there for a year so if it does take awhile to get a baby at least I'll get maternity leave, which will give us time to figure out the money/staying home vs working thing. I guess thats all for now, I need to sleep. Tons of homework this week and two tests and a paper next week on my first week of the new job. I think I took to many classes! I'm pretty burnt out! Is it Dec??

Keepin On

The frist half of my root canal went well. I have a really bad infection so they couldn't do the whole thing. I go back Tuesday for the 2nd half and crown. I feel so much better though. Wish the drive didn't suck but when your getting a good deal you take it! I had my MRI on my foot yesterday. I'll find out Monday (if the MRI comes back on time) whats wrong. I don't know how I feel about it because on the one hand who wants surgery or physical therapy but on the other hand I don't want them to say nothings wrong when the pain is getting worse and worse. Kinda makes me think of infertility. UGH! School is moving along. I'm doing ok. I wish I was doing better thought. I think I'm just going to go part time next semester. I can't afford to pay for school if I'm not working and working even part time and going to school full time is ALOT! I'm scared about next month when we start our PRIDE classes. Saturdays are my day to sleep and recharge and well get all my homework done and with class from 10-5 there won't be any sleeping in and I can do homework at night but man I'm gonna be whipped out!! My mom keeps telling me why don't you push off the classes until JAN and I think yeah that would be easier but It's been 5 years of trying I don't want to push it off!! I wanted a baby like well years ago. OH MY WORD 5 years, did I just say that?! Now I wanna cry! Why does this have to be so hard? I feel like such a weak person sometimes, a jelouse person. Part of me coupons for baby things and really does believe we'll get out baby but the sad part of me thinks am I kidding myself, are we really going to get a baby?! UGH This just isn't something your suppose to worry about pretty much your whole 20's. Ok now I've got tears welling up and my lunch is about up so I'm going to suck them in and head to class and try to not think about it. I thought school was suppose to keep my mind off this and help me toward a degree in the mean time. Guess this shows what I really want in life. I suck!

YUCK

Thats how I feel. I have a HORRIBLE toothache. Root Canal tomorrow, thank goodness!! Although I have to drive close to 5 hours each way alone to the dentist. I'm not happy about the drive me the pain is so bad I just want it done. I shouldn't have waited until it started hurting to get it fixed. My boot is also hurting so bad, it always done the day after an apt. Ya know the whole let me push on very little thing and you tell me if it hurts. YES IT HURTS!! Waiting to hear when my MRI is. My bosses at work are being ummm hows a nice way to say it, not understanding that I have doctors apts. Pretty much told me they don't want me to come in late for doctors apt, didn't want to give me the day off for the dentist. Can't I just skip school and go, umm no! They pretty much don't want me to go to school in the spring. It's just to hard on them when I'm not there. HELLO! We've lost a person and I went part time, you need to hire somebody full time! DUH! I'm only one person. UGH, can you tell I'm annoyed. All that to say I'm looking for a new job. I want to work M-W-F and I want holiday/sick/vacation pay and if I need to come in late for a doctors apt one day then thats ok (I don't mind staying late). I think my sister can get me a job with her company and they are very understand and flex sch. Not to much going on with the adoption. Waiting for our home study. They have done all of our reference checks so I don't think the home study is to far off. Our PRIDE classes start the first weekend in OCT. I'm ready to get them over, but I'm scared about how it's going to effect everything else. I study and get my homework done on Saturdays, I sleep in and thats what keeps me going all week and that won't be there when we start classes. Just another thing I can over come right? School is going well. I had my first two tests today, yes on top of feeling crappy!! I know I aced my first one and feel better good on the 2nd but we'll see. Sorry for the rambling. I have been trying to keep up and read your blogs just suck at writing myself or commenting. I can only get away with so much nonstudying internet. Hubbys pretty umm whats a nice word, kindly reminds me all the time you need study babe. LOL

All about school

Sorry I’ve been a bad blogger lately. School started this week and it’s a tad more over whelming then I thought it would be. I’m taking 12 credit hours. I’ll walk you thru my day and sorry if this is boring. I start off with my communication class (lecture only on Tues. Morning) and I love my teacher. He’s super funny and keeps the class engaged. Then I walk to the other side of campus (yes with the boot) and go to Anthropology. This class is lame! The teacher pretty much goes over the reading he gave us to read prior to class or goes off on a story that has nothing to do with what the topic is. Then I take only a ten min. walk to my American Gov. class. I thought this would be my fav class but so far I’m not liking it. Mostly because I’ve only gone to one class and the teacher is CRAZY! She won’t let you go to the bathroom, leave early or come in late. Wants people using a computer to sit in the front (it’s stadium seating with a ton of stairs). She’s just kinda strict for a college class. I thought I left the Army last year. Maybe my next class will go better. Oh she also gave us a crap ton of homework. More homework than I had for my whole online class last semester. Then I have an hour break to eat lunch and what not. Then I go to communication (this is the talking/group part) and I like my teacher in this class as well. She’s a TA and seems really down to earth. This is by far my fav topic yet but like I said I’ve only gone to one class. Now this class and my next were in the same building, great because I only ten min. Well the communication class got moved as there was no way to hook up the computer and the chairs did suck but now it’s on the other side of campus. I’m gonna be late every class! I might might maybe be able to make it if I wasn’t wearing the boot but there is no way with. My last class in Understanding Dance. I think I’ll enjoy this class. We have to go see a few performances and things like that. I don’t think it’ll be to hard. I really need to do well and raise my GPA. I don’t think any of my classes are to hard but they are going to a lot of work. I’m not sure it was the best idea to work 24 hrs a week and go to school 12. Plus the drive to and from. I need more study time during the week. Working wen may have to go. Well see how it goes. It’s only week one so I hope that I’ll find a nice flow, right now it’s just over whelming. On a side note I had my doctors apt this morning to go over all my blood work. All normal! The doctor filled out my medical slip for the adoption so one more thing marked off my list. Now to get the classes down and the home study. Ready to get this ball rolling.

Finger Prints

DONE!! Also paid my tuition so Fall. UGH!

Home Assessment

It wasn't the home study like I thought, just the home assessment. It went awesome though! She said she was very impressed with how clean it was, the baby room looked awesome and everything was already baby proofed. She said she's never come to a house and they had all the paperwork already. We are doing our finger prints tomorrow and having the doctor sign off on our "physicals" (It's really just blood pressure, height, weight.) on Thursday. We both already happened to have an apt for different reasons then so it works out. We can't start our classes until Oct though. Last class is Nov 3rd. She said she thinks by the time we finish our classes that we'll be fully cert. We should have the real home study in a couple weeks. Should only take one home study since the house is done, then they come back and just have you read over everything and make sure it's what you answered and that everything is correct. She told us that she doesn't think it'll take very long to get a placement. I told her I'd heard 2 years for a newborn and she said she didn't think it would be that long. Shocked me! HAPPY! I can't believe by early Nov well be cert and we could have a baby by the end of the year. CRAZY I mean don't get me wrong I don't expect it to be that fast but you never know.

Tomorrow!

We have been cleaning like crazy people. A special thanks to my sister for all her help (It's really hard with a boot on your leg). I still wanna sweep the floor one more time but all in all this apartment is as clean as I've ever seen it. Yes we are that messy/dirty. LOL! I think we are ready for tomorrow. I have all our extra paperwork, birth cert, insurance all that stuff. This is happening! SCARY! On non-baby news I start my Jr year at OU next week. Who knows if I'll finish or if we'll get a baby before or after I finish but I'm a student there and thats what matters. I never thought I'd A get this far in school and B ever be a student at OU!! I'll fill ya'll in after our meeting tomorrow. Wish us luck!