Saturday, February 23, 2013

10dpiui

I'm feeling kinda down today. I know it's still early but I just feel like I'm going to fail once again. I just keep thinking I can't do this again. I don't think I'm strong enough, I don't know that my body can handle this again and again and again. I sat in the car today and thought I know God has a plan but I'm so scared it's not the same as mine. I know this plan his always better but it's scary to let go of the control.

I'm still hoping it will work. I may have stollen this from Overworked but it's exactly how I feel.


I'm still cramping and now sweet tea tastes funky. I hope I've just gotten a couple of bad teas cause I love that stuff but then again I'm kinda hopping it's a sign. Yes before you flip out I'm still drinking caffeine. I've cut back from 10 sodas/tea a day to no more then 3. That does put me under the allowed amount for a pregnant person. I still wanna cut back some more but I' not going to do that until i know I'm pregnant. 

PLEASE LET THIS WORK!!!!!!!!

10 comments:

  1. I know it's a lot easier said than done, but try to stay positive. I really hope that this is it for you. When are you going to test?

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  2. Hate when our guts make us have that feeling of we're out!!! Hope you get the bfp in a few days!!!

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  3. I am praying for you. It is so hard waiting. *hugs*

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  4. I would never flip out on anyone doing anything before they see two pink lines - I kind of think it's crazy some of the things people do during their cycle, and I'm definitely proof you can do healthy stuff for years and it do absolutely nothing. And under the caffeine amount for a pregnant person is awesome.

    I'm hoping that those are good symptoms but I also think all of us infertiles are stronger than we think we are, and it's amazing all we will do to reach that final goal! Hang in there!

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  5. Prayers and fingers crossed for you!!

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  6. The end of the 2ww is the worst! I'm sorry you're feeling down. You have some very promising signs. I hope this is it for you!

    -and on the caffeine front, I'm totally with Ducky. I always feel like I'm in the minority on that one. I've tried for way too long not eating this, not drinking that just because that's what I thought I was supposed to do. Guess what? It's never helped me get pregnant.

    Chin up, girl! XO

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  7. I'm with ya on the caffeine thing! For the first...I don't know, 18 monitored cycles I gave it up. Wouldn't you know it, I'm still not knocked up! Sometimes there is something to be said for staying relaxed and not jacking up your routine too much!

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  8. Visiting from ICLW. I really, really, really hope that this is your cycle! As for the caffeine, I'm with you. I may not drink as much as I used to, but there's no way I could say goodbye to it completely. I'd hurt someone! ;)

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  9. I hope this is it for you and you don't have to worry about doing it again. That being said, I think infertility gives us strength we didn't know we had so I know you have it in you to keep fighting if you need to.

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  10. I really enjoyed that picture, it really encapsulates what so many people working through and with an infertility clinic are feeling. I hope that you're successful and soon you will be able to greet a little "you" smiling back.

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