Wednesday, January 26, 2011

My mind runs wild somedays.

I woke up super early (4 hours after going to sleep) and I felt like I had boulders in my OV. YAY and bummer at the same time. I started thinking we know that I am ovulating and because it hurts so bad I'm hoping they are good size but then I think they've never done an u/s so what if thats the problem. Then I start thinking well what if DH sperm just don't wanna get the job done, then I remind myself no they tested that and he was ok. Then I start thinking what if my eggs just have the tightest, thickest wall around it and won't let DH sperm in. Then my brain starts trippin going why won't you let the sperm in, I just want the sperm in. Why do we play such cruel jokes/mess with our head so much? I then of course couldn't go back to sleep. Oh the joys of TTC.

The opk was light yesterday and nothing today. I'm confused! I don't have any of my normal I just ovulated signs so I don't think it was the falling surge. We'll see what tomorrow brings. See this is why I hate opks.

My day was pretty uneventful just alot of studying and trying to relax. Now I'm off to bed before more bloodwork tomorrow. JOY! Then my first test since going back to school and work.


  1. I hate the wild rides our minds take us on, too. Let us know how the blood work went. Good luck!

  2. Thanks for stopping by my blog. Sadly over here in the UK, we do not usually get a beta! We have to pee on a stick and call the clinic with the results! Thats is the crap part, I wish we had a beta. My test date is 6th feb

  3. Ugh, I hate OPK's too. Is it positive? Is it not?

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  4. Infertility makes us all crazy, doesn't it?! So many few answers sometimes. Hang in there - you're doing great!

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  5. I hear you, I got myself to an anxiety attack after my thoughts wondered to deed :) This IF staff is not easy...sigh...

    I too hate OPK, when I was asked to do them for IUI I was so nervous that I would not be able interpret the results, so the day i did it it was negative and the next day i just begged the clinic to do an u/s and b/w rather than me POAS :). I've never gotten a positive on an OPK EVER, and I do ovulate, oh well.